Saturday, April 15, 2017

TakdirNya yang terindah 1

Allah. Sesungguhnya pertemuan aku dengan seseorang yang istimewanya sifatnya buat aku menangis semahunya. Bukan menangis kerana sedih dan kasihan tetapi aku menangis kerana kau telah menunjukkan aku jawapan kepada doa2ku serta kau telah memakbulkannya. Terima kasih Allah kau telah menyusun atur perjalanan aku ini.

apa senjata seseorang muslim itu?


Jawapan yang aku dapat pada hari ini, bukan drpada doa2 ku untuk hari ni, 3 hari lepas mahupun 3 minggu lepas tetapi 4-5 tahun lepas!!!!

I asked for strength....
And ALLAH gave me difficulties to make me strong...
I asked for wisdom...
And Allah gave me problems to solve...
I asked for courage...
And Allah gave me obstacle to overcome...
I asked for love...
And Allah gave me troubled people to help...
I asked for favours...
And Allah gave me opportunities...
“Maybe I received nothing I wanted, but I received everything I needed”

Allah tahu apa yg terbaik and He will grant it not when we wish but when we needed.

Saturday, June 25, 2016

The littlest things

have you ever just grateful to have someone *generally, family.friends. who remember all the littlest things that youu really5 love to do..

it hve been days that I really cravingg STEAMBOATTT. the me type selagi tak dapat benda yang craving selagi tula susah nak makan benda lain. 2 hari tak makan pon takpe..sebab kalau makan pun jadi mual...lagi bertambah teruk kalau tgh datang bulan. wajib kena laksanakan craving or badan terus jadi sakit dan mual yang sgtla teruk. thankyouuu guyssss melaksanakan makan2 ni.hehe. I really5 do appreciate it. at least this make me  feeling less bitter for wht ve happened this un fun week.

thankyou for those yang concern pasal perpindahan ke rumah sewa too. its such a sweet deed that you guys wanna help to carried our stuff without even asking!! macam tahu2 je tengah pening psl brg keperluan lagi.. RIP money,,,for this week. all cash sedebuk in a day. mmg sakit. mula2 ingt nak pakai khidmat je then few friends tawarkan diri nak help rasa ringan sikit kepala.  at least, less money bab servis ni. terharu gila bila diorg kata apa guna kawan. huhu. nila org kata kawan yg akan muncul bila tengah susah. bila dunia tengah tunggang terbalik. ceh. hiperbola. Alhamdulillah for that kind of friends. my dad akan datang bersama brg2 keperluan lain but I xnkla susahkan org tua bab nak angkut and agihkan brg ,.coz after all this timeee....takde org lain yg buat accept my dad...kesian ayah least masa my dad dtg all dh setup tinggal dia letak tilam je.hihi. forever be my king and my beloved hero.nilah perkara perkara kecil yang boleh mmbahagiakan orang...make me happy....
tapi bila buat baik ni it take few people to realise it.... ada org buat baik 1000 kali pun org tak nampak tapi sekali dia shaitonnnn selamanya akan dicap shaitonnn..thats human.

skang tgh viral psl a couple sewa limo. nak rasa sweet ke apa ke tu pendpt masing2. nk kata mmbazir ke tu duit lelaki tu. sukatila kan nak buat pe. maybe duit dah bergunung sgt smpai xtaw nak watpe so pi sewa limo,hoho.bagi pndpt ikhlas aku perkara yang sweet tu benda2 kecil yang orang lain tak nampak bertapa bermaknanya perkara kecil tu kat  kita melainkan org yang sayangkan kita..... sebab org yang syg kita nila akan nampak benda yg org lain xnmpk kat kita. so dr situ kita tahuuu dia betul2 sygkan kita. cthnya benda cliche la aku suka makan. org yg rpt or syg mesti tahu aku suka and they give me  food..hahha nak bonus sayang++ diorg bagi fav food. ada banyak lagi contoh lain tapi kena rahsiala! tak special kalau semua tahu. :p something about me I realised  Im not someone yg kebendaan . bukan nak be proud ke apa or whtever u thinking, alhamdulillah my parent ajar I a great lesson about "kebendaan". Although asal dr family yg boleh je nak dpt apa yg kau nak tapi my dad still teach me how to get it but in a hard way and yes of course u kena always pray to Allah utk minta apa yg kau nak dan apa yg kau dh ada sekarang. :)

nah aku tinggal 1 lagi fav lagu ost love rosie .huhu. lagu takde kaitan dengan cerita.

Dreams, dreams
Of when we had just started things
Dreams of you and me
And it seems, it seems
That I can't shake those memories
I wonder if you have the same dreams too.

The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but it's so true
I know it's not right, but it seems unfair
The things are reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come on, Tell me
Is this the end?

Alone again (Naturally)

I just love this song

In a little while from now
If I'm not feeling any less sour
I promise myself to treat myself
And visit a nearby tower
And climbing to the top
Will throw myself off
In an effort to
Make it clear to whoever
Wants to know what it's like When you're shattered
Left standing in the lurch at a church
Were people saying, My God, that's tough
She stood him up
No point in us remaining
We may as well go home
As I did on my own
Alone again, naturally
To think that only yesterday
I was cheerful, bright and gay
Looking forward to who wouldn't do
The role I was about to play
But as if to knock me down
Reality came around
And without so much as a mere touch
Cut me into little pieces
Leaving me to doubt
Talk about, God in His mercy
Oh, if he really does exist
Why did he desert me
In my hour of need
I truly am indeed
Alone again, naturally
It seems to me that
There are more hearts broken in the world
That can't be mended
Left unattended
What do we do
What do we do
Alone again, naturally
Looking back over the years
And whatever else that appears
I remember I cried when my father died
Never wishing to hide the tears
And at sixty-five years old
My mother, God rest her soul
Couldn't understand why the only man
She had ever loved had been taken
Leaving her to start
With a heart so badly broken
Despite encouragement from me
No words were ever
And when she passed away
I cried and cried all day
Alone again, naturally
Alone again, naturally

Thursday, June 23, 2016

2 am

its 2 am in the morning now.....
esok exam statistic....hope tak macam comp archi tadi. menangis tengok soalan. terrible gila. statistic=math=and i doesnt into math sgt....and my course basic are MATH+PROGRAMMING.
course InfoSec ...whyyyyyyyyyyy.hahaha. dalam byk2 upu yang bersuaian dngan pointer aku kt matrik kenapa aku dpt InfoSec T_T. sumpah down gila. dengan programming ke laut, math lagi ler. kadang2 kita merancang Allah yang tentukan...I always remind myself Allah the best planner.... the perfect Life Designer..benda jadi mesti ada sebabb..tapiii how i wish i know the reason nowww than later....or years after now. ni macam kes masuk sekolah sains. sigh. suka belajar sains tapi ....... hmm.  I love learning but passion tak tinggi sangat mcm org yang betul do the programming. hadap computer for hours...coding T_T . rasa macam tak fit enough. tak tahu nak cakap kat siapa dah sbb semua org punya pndpt to me is too cliche and tak open up my mind sgt... or Im beingg too ignorant. haha. Im the type yang rela/ lebih suka tulis karangan full smpai 10 muka surat pon takpe asalkan NO MATH/NUMBERING. but whyyy I always dpt yg contra from my passion. T_T My lect ckp if u think it doesnt fit u are still early to backout but I dont think I can be able to do that...thats wayyyyyy too easyyy. and im not that kind of person. I kinda love risking my life as it make life more colourful, adventure and experience-full. So, rene.... u must willingly proceed and u just gotta be extra kental ! remember BABAH and MAMA always.

bebelan malam. kuatkan semangat sendiri. since beginning mmg kita tak boleh harapkan orang lain utk motivate diri unless you yourself :) - lect kimia KMM

Monday, June 20, 2016

Define Arina

Assalamualaikum hai selamat pagi :)

Act ppagi dh grumpy sikit sebab org kacau aku sleep............ memcik tau. dhla diz week mmg tidur like 2-3 hours. btw, now kitorg tgh final. doakanlah kami dpt jawab dgn baik. flying colours githu. yeah final tula tidur ke laut sikit, dia punya tak tenang tu lain mcm . mata panda jgn ckplaaaaaaaa.

What is Arina?
A mixture of Aris+Muslina=Soft+Rough=Kind+Naughty=Patience+Temper

if u know what i mean

What Arina love the most?
People buying her food.LOL

What Arina hate the most?
People disturbing her basic needs. Such as sleeping&eating time.

What is Arina FAV hobby?
hm. eat read sleep

In a GREAT food relationship with
Shawerma *currently FAV after breaking up with mee tarik

Why Arina is gettin fat?
because she eat more but less exercise ,she realise it but whos care.HAHA

When will Arina be the 47kg Arina back?
a second moment when she saw her body goals then back to 5xkg Arina, So I bet it take a longggg time to go. In Sha Allah but not promise 47 . Too far farrrrr awayyy to catch up. but thats not impossible.

What Arina love to do when nobody around?

What is Arina should do now?


Tuesday, May 24, 2016

Countless pain

Assalamualaikum hai :)

today my body, my teeth and my head was shocked with the news that I will undergo a mini surgery , Teeth implantation. I was totally restless and very unready with everything. act more to unready to bear the pain.

something like this


memandangkan minggu ni minggu presentation , minggu busy banyak , kurang rest... paling awal tidur pukul 2, lewat after subuh. so semalam, I sleep like after subuh as I ve to monitor my group utk prepare presentation hari ni. 


So, I went to my appointment like usual . I ingt hari ni buat checkup biasaaaaa....who knowsss kena implant pulak as the other the doctor said implant crowning apa semua buat after habis RCT. Im still undergo  RCT sebab gigi yg mati tu too manyyyyy... 1 gigi pun makan masa sejam lebih. 

dr : So, arina today we will do a mini surgery. Implantation.. pasang tu pasang ni.. bla bla bla *banyak sangat yg di cakapnyaaa.haha. tapi yg aku ingat... akan sakit sikit bila suntik kat gusi ni, weve done it before right?   okay, tapi bila suntik kat lelangit ni sakit banyak.

me : gulp. suntik gusi bagi aku pun sakit banyak......lelangit yang dia kata sakit banyak ni? kau rasa??????? haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.stweessss. but I always remind myself whenever Im feeling down with the pain Ive been through with this " Allah choose you for reasons. Allah know u can bear with everything. Its okay Arina this will make you more stronger. "

frankly, air mata sakit tu mngalir masa suntik kat lelangit....memang sakit BANYAK sangat. suntik gusi aku dh biasa, so macam boleh tahan sikit...lelangit ni perh......itu baru permulaan.......

selepas beberapa seketika after pmbedahan..

MA : kenapa muka tu dah sedih dik? memang sakit, tpi tahan ya..muka tu dh okay dr dulu cuma parut2 nanti kita elokkan lagi.. kalau cucuk gusi pakai jari pun sakit, suntik...belah dengan pisau apatah lagi...

me : hell yeahhhh!!!!! hahahaha it is soo sakit. so dont make me talk.  Im just kidding , I cakap dlm hati je..luaran angguk2....kesan ubat bius dh makin rasa sakit tu sgtla bertambah tambah sampai naik ke kepala.  

dr : ouh so insyirah ( dr mmg kejap panggil arina kejap panggil insyirah) parut ni dh matang ni did u do anything about it?

me : yeah i sapu the dermatic and pakai pelekat tu. I think its already fine than before.

dr : ye tapi I think next appointment nak suntik je bagi hilang terus but u kena tahan sikit okay? you know how much pain it is..yea?

me : okayyyy..... my dr sgt perfectionist ..kalau boleh rasa nak buat pembedahan plastik trus bagi semua flaw kat muka ni hilang.hoho. aku dh redha dah segala parut yg ada...kat muka, kat hati. cettt.

keluar dari bilik doktor , there is my infinity dad... Im forever blessed to Allah because everytime Im in so much pain , my family always be there for me. Family is surely everything.... Infinity lovee..and my backbone... No love can defeat the power of love between blood. and whatever will always choose to trust you.despite how naughty and stubborn you are. Thank you Allah for this life and love of my life :)

Sunday, May 15, 2016

Big Girls Dont Cry

well big girls do cry sometimes when they cant bear the sadness. The pic above is me-be-like for the past 3 hours......I kecewa. I sedih. I geram.

I kecewa sebab I careless

I sedih sebab ia melibatkan maruah diri sebagai seorang perempuan muslimah

I geram sebab hmm, everythingla!

yeah I menangis sampai kering dah mata ni, I remembered the firsttt timeee I rasa perasaan macam ni masa I was in form 1. My friend, a boy......came near me and said "bau kau wangi la" and I was likeeee ^%&^%*&*$* . what theeeee....u sniff on meee?!!!!!!!!

I never accepted the words his said as a praise. I rasa seolah satu penghinaan. Hina yang teramat sangat5 sebab I let a opposite gender sniff on me. Although at that time I tak rasa I pakai any perfume *because dari dulu bukan penggemar perfume....he can smellllllllllllllllllll meee. haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. Since that I tak pernahhhh pakai perfumeeeeee sampailah satu hari when Im 18,  I jalan with my mummy lalu Victoria Secret and I jatuh cinta  dengan set perfume BOMBSHELL...all about youuu is wonderful BOMBSHELL! then umur 20 baru dapat pakai.wahaha. tu pun masih berjaga jaga supaya peristiwa form 1 tu tak berulang lagi.. Just pakai bila tahu tak bercampur sangat dengan lelaki. *me myself may not very much pious but I percaya semua manusia akan ada naluri utk mnjadi baik . I punya berjaga-jaga tu sampai mummy tanya I tak pernah pakai ke BOMBSHELL tu ....dulu nak sangat... sebab nampak sangatla tak terusik. huhu.

yesterday...without I even noticed, my awrah was exposed....

Awrah (Arabic: عورة‎) is a term used within Islam which denotes the intimate parts of the body, for both men and women, which must be covered with clothing. Exposing the awrah is unlawful in Islam and is regarded as sin. The exact definition of awrah varies between different schools of Islamic thought. 
Prophet sws said, “No man should look at the ‘awrah of another man, and no woman should look at the ‘awrah of another woman.”
[Reported by Muslim]
 Neither men nor women should uncover their genitals at any time except when in privacy. Men and women should at all times wear garments that are loose and made of material that is not transparent enough to see the skin colour and shape of the other (male or female). Not only that, they must also protect their gaze from the awrah of those unlawful for them.
O children of Adam, We have bestowed upon you clothing to conceal your private parts and as adornment. But the clothing of righteousness - that is best. That is from the signs of Allah that perhaps they will remember

“No man should look at the ‘awrah of another man, and no woman should look at the ‘awrah of another woman.”

yeah it should be like that because a man should be someone who protect and lead us...woman...but somehow..theyre soooo  irresponsible.Theyre not being TRUE MAN. They didnt protect an awrah of a woman......Im not blaming on them 100%..but Im just a lil bit frust as it was exposed without I even notice and the person who notice about it didnt try to "save" or "covers" me.......they even enjoy watching it... this really remind me of a video that I watch a guy saving a woman's pride by covering her when her pants is loosing down when they were playing in a theme park. I believe he is not a Muslim but why he can save the woman's pride??? COMMON SENSE and being a TRUE MAN! However what I get,...the main is...we ourselves MUST COVER our Awrah PROPERLY...realized that if we re not taking care and love ourselves..who else will?? the guy who enjoy watching us? noo..... just us , us and us.....and we must always remember as long we re not married..we as  child, Im as a daughter always and alwaysss bring our parent's pride together with is pretty sad when imagining a parent who took care and love they child eternally carried a lot of they child's sins and automatic sent to hell.

O Allah! Forgive my past and future sins and whatever I have done in secret, and whatever I have done in public. You are The One Who brings forward and Who delays, there is no deity worthy of worship but You.

p/s : 2:22 am which i can talk to someone right now.. :')